Tired

I'm exhausted. Probably more emotionally than physically, but the effects feel the same. My c.v. is finished. My application is finished. I've not submitted either of them, but this is good thing, since I've only just laid down the final drafts of each and it will do me some good to take a break before I double check them and the finally send them off into the ether.

The whole experience has only lasted a week, but it feels like an eternity. Too many tumultuous peaks and troughs along the way for my liking. My confidence in particular has soared to the highest mountain tops and then plummeted back down to the bleakest depths. Several times. It's now hovering in some inbetween limbo state, which is probably a good place for it - for now. A little stability will do me good.

I appreciate now that I'm far more confident about myself and my abilities than I was during the last period of job hunting I underwent. That I'm still a trembling, neurotic bag of nerves now should give you a clue as to just what I was like back then (how on earth did I ever manage to convince anyone to employ me back then?). Anyway, enough moping about for one evening (and hopefully for a while after this). It's nearly over and done with. Thank goodness!